Keep Going – Lost

I went snowshoeing for the first time last night. It was dark, cold and snowing. Of the group of nine I knew one person and really didn’t know him all that well. 20 minutes in on what could be considered a light climb I am already struggling to catch my breath. My heart is pounding and I’ve already broken a sweat. At this point I am ready to give into FEAR , Fuck Everything And Run, and turn around and schlep back to the car. I don’t. Instead I close my eyes and in that moment I decide I am in it to win it. My focus shifts to relaxing and enjoying the moment. An hour and a half later we are back at the cars and I feel as though I could easily go further. What a delight. The organizer later told me that this was an intermediate level hike. Booya! Not only did I finish but I finished a course that I perceived to be simpler than what it was. Who has two thumbs and rocks? This guy. One step at a time. It literally took one step at a time with pauses along the way to absorb the energy around me and refocus on my goal, finishing. What a great experience. I can’t wait to do it again.

While schlepping through the frozen woodlands there were times where I would literally just stop, close my eyes and just be in the moment. Lose myself to the sensations, sounds and energy around me. Letting go of thought and will and just surrendering to the universe with no expectations. Lost and free. By allowing myself to be lost in a moment I was rewarded with a sense of freedom that I never felt before. Peace and tranquility that only nature can provide. Lost is like a drug and I want another hit.